Monday, September 5, 2011

Confessions of a pastor just trying to get it right


Something that Ive been thinking about a lot lately. How does a Christian leader (for example: a pastor) model the type of incarnational leadership that Paul encourages Timothy in while practicing the virtues of private piety that Jesus espouses in his ministry?

Consider the following passages from Paul:

  Command and teach these things. Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity. Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching. Do not neglect your gift, which was given you through prophecy when the body of elders laid their hands on you.

  Be diligent in these matters; give yourself wholly to them, so that everyone may see your progress. Watch your life and doctrine closely. Persevere in them, because if you do, you will save both yourself and your hearers.
1 Timothy 4:11-16


Follow my example, as I follow the example of Christ
1 Corinthians 11:1

You know how we lived among you for your sake. You became imitators of us and of the Lord, for you welcomed the message in the midst of severe suffering with the joy given by the Holy Spirit. And so you became a model to all the believers in Macedonia and Achaia.
1 Thessalonians 1:5b-7

It would seem that a good ethic for a Christian leader or teacher (as well as the Christian in general) is to wear your faith and practice on your sleeve. Living your faith publicly so that the whole world can see how you're different because of Jesus. More than that it would seem for a leader that I am called to not just live a "life out-loud" as some put it, but am to also intentionally model spiritual disciplines that will be helpful for those following me to examine and replicate in their own lives so that they can develop Christian maturity too. On the surface this seems very straightforward. But then there are these sayings of Jesus:

Be careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.

“So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honoured by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.
Matthew 6:1-4

“And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.
Matthew 6:5-8

“When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show others they are fasting. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, so that it will not be obvious to others that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.
Matthew 6:16-18


Do you see the problem I'm having?

Last March/April I came back from Guatemala and did a very public purging of my Transformers collection. It was a spiritual discipline for me to learn how to be less materialistic, more generous and more public in my personal walk with the Lord. It was a type of fast and it was a type of giving and I'm starting to wonder in reflection if in my desire to be a public example for my congregation (and whoever else happens to stubble across this blog) that I was in violation of some of the commands of Jesus. Now it seems obvious to me that God blessed that endeavour and it opened up opportunities for me to teach that I wouldn't have had otherwise so don't be concerned that I'm living with crippling guilt or anything - but I do wonder is that sort of things supposed to be normative in my life as a leader or is it the exception that proves the rule that I shouldn't be doing that sort of thing?

I'm actually really torn on this right now. The Lord has been teaching me other things that excite me since I finished my Lenten Transformers purge, but Ive been reluctant to come out and share some of those experiences for fear that it's the wrong thing to do. Where is the line between personal bragging and bragging in the Lord? What do I do if something I could share BOTH exalts Jesus and makes me look good in the process? Should I keep back from publicly acknowledging God because I don't want to appear to be bragging - or should I risk blowing my own horn so that in my accomplishments God's hand can be seen and Jesus could receive praise?

This has real implications for preaching as well. No preacher I know has a problem telling a good old fashioned embarrassing story about themselves to break the ice, it really helps to make the congregation realize that you're no different than any of them. In the same way for illustration I don't know of many pastors who would hesitate too much to use a "safe" example of their own shortcomings to illustrate the dangers of not getting something right (that does bring up another discussion of how vulnerable and transparent is too transparent in preaching but I'll leave that one for another day) - but what about when the best illustration or example you can think of from every day life is an example of you doing it well yourself? I don't know about other preachers out there but I really struggle with whether or not I should be using those illustrations because I don't want my messages to be about how great I am - but rather how great Jesus is.

I don't have any answers to this question right now but I would welcome a discussion with any who are interested. Perhaps you have thought this issue through already and have come down on one side or the other - I would welcome your reasoning. Or perhaps you're like me and just trying to figure out how to be the best leader you can be in whatever capacity God has called you to lead in - I'd welcome you to join me on this journey of reflection. I'm looking forward to your thoughts.

Until later,
Chris

2 comments:

  1. Well, Chris, as a writer, and a columnist for 19 years, most people write about their experiences. My columns often reflect my experience, in a self-deprecating sort of way. I find it breaks a lot of ice, as you said, and also shows a grounding for what you are talking about.

    It's not a bad thing, per se.

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  2. FANTASTIC questions. I can relate to the concern about preaching vulnerably. I tend to err on the side of authentic rather than smooth and polished and "example" oriented because I just think that the pastor has to put him/herself under the Word like everyone else and there is no sense projecting an image that, even if it helps people, is only going to lead them to the pastor.

    That said, it would be good (and biblical) if pastors were to some degree imitating Christ enough to be worth imitating. That said, I think imitating Christ has to mean first and foremost imitating His Spirit of daily submission to the Father and self-giving to others.

    Problem is, if you preach vulnerable (and go with something other than the "safe" illustration) you really run the risk of being taken all sorts of ways you don't intend. To me it comes down to what kind of community you have (and how much of a communion it is). Trust, open communication and understanding, on the journey together, that sort of thing.

    As for the main question, I guess one of the ways we tend to parse this out is that we go for the "be and example" passages and we let the others ones be reminders to some kind of aw-shucks humility or to not mention your examples at all. I don't know, I tend to come back to my points above for the right posture in all this. The pastor as example is not something I want to ignore completely, but I think it might be overrated/overdone. Seems like the leader needs to step under the Word along with everyone else. That means we may hear some of their confessions and victories (as appropriate), but we'll hear others' too.

    I don't know. Just trying to discuss.

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